life is beautiful

Life is Beautiful ...
dont let anyone convince you differently
especially yourself you are your own worst critic
i have to leave myself constant reminders about how beautiful my life really is
this world is trying to convince us that life is not beautiful
i will be the first to admit i am my own worst critic i hit a point not to long ago
where i saw only negatives in my life
* i was not pretty enough
* i did not have the "cloths"
* i dont have the car ( i drive a 18 year old car)
* i did not have the sophisticated job
* i go to the grocery store in sweats ( i was unaware that was a fashion NO)
* i am not a size zero
* i am FAR from tan
i am sure you can see where i am going with this one by now 
* i dont have long hair 
* i dont match my cloths
* i love the DI
the list goes on but....
it hit me a while ago that my

why?

because

"happy girls are pretty girls"

I wear boots 

not heals

i hate "eye" make up 

i wish i had red hair

i dont watch what i eat

I have dreams ... BIG dreams

I live my life with no regrets 

i secretly love pink and poka dots

i do hair .... and love it 

i love feathers and bright colors

and...

THIS IS WHY MY LIEF IS BEAUTIFUL

i live my life because i love it!

getting old?

I know I am only 20 but I am reminded everyday that I am getting older from....

• Kenzie telling me how excited she is to plan my birthday party!! (21 BIG DEAL)
• The fact that my back hurts every night
• My feet constantly hurt
• I watch Oprah & Dr. Oz
• I take mid day naps (everyday)
• I go to bed no later than 10:00 p.m. (on weekends to)

But this was the ultimate reminder

Tuesday night Kenzie and myself spent the evening at Cory's house with his mom Michelle sister Haley and his 2 adorable nieces!
1st Clue Haddy Boo comes running around the corner with her arms open offering the hug of a life time so I go to bend over and grab her but  I STRUGGLED TO GET BACK UP! ** STRUGGLED**
then.....
as I sit there holding haddy she decides she wants to play a game :)
* I look at Kenzie GAME TIME
DUCK DUCK GOOSE suggested game!
sigh of relief
I can play that! I dont have to concentrate and its not to hard PERFECT
so as the four of us sit in a close circle  Gracie is up to bat
DUCK
DUCK
DUCK
DUCK
GOOSE
Kenzie jumps up and chases her around the circle.....
The first few rounds go good as I am anticipating my turn
Haddy Boo you're up
DUCK
DUCK
she tapped me on the head
GOOSE
the anticipation was finally over MY TURN 
but.....
it took me probably 15 seconds to realize it was my turn by that time she had already made it around the circle and was ready to take my place
as the game goes on I am finding it harder and harder to stand up and sit back down and you are wanting me to run in between the up downs??
DUCK DUCK GOOSE has been proven harder than you think and for a 20 year old
this is not a good sign!
Down hill slope already

oh and did I fail to mention .....

we have the same sparkle tights. (she is less than half my age) hehe

goodbye is the hardest part

saying goodbye is the hardest part!...
I guess we could say that posting this on my blog is my way of mourning the loss of a GREAT friend!
Cory Jex 
has always been and always will be an amazing friend of mine
my friendship with Cory bloomed when I was a sophomore in high school. Cory was dating my best friend Bryn Bertleson and I was dating his best friend Tyler Dawe.
Let me just tell you there was never a dull moment and the 4 of us spent everyday during lunch, after school, and into the weeeee hours of the morning together. That was a lot of time but it never got old! some of our expeditions started with lame trips to wal mart to all day trips snowmobiling.
fun was CLEARLY our middle names

we established a instant bond that will last beyond this life

Cory and I spent a lot of time together we were famous for surprise visits to each others houses were we spend hours talking about everything. Cory was someone I could talk to about anything! he humored me in listening to all my stupid boy drama and giving me endless advice on how to handle the problem he loved telling me "show him who wears the pants heather, we all know it's you" he was my shoulder to cry on and when i felt like i had no one else i always had Cory to lean on!
we loved hanging out in his basement watching movies and laughing I was famous for jumping from couch to love sac to couch and back to the love sac i always ended up landing on Cory and staying there he laughed every time even though i am positive i hurt him at least once.

poor Michelle had to listen to my laugh that echoed to whole house from down stairs
there were a few times she came down stairs making sure nothing was wrong (if you know me you know what i am talking about)

I always had fun when I was with Cory
one day I was over at his house hanging out with him and he got up to go to the bathroom so being the idiot that I am i thought it would be funny if i ran after him and jumped on him.
so.....
Cory got up and started to walk towards the bathroom
I leaped off the couch (literally) and went chasing after him
as Cory grabs the bathroom door to open it
I SCREAM "think fast"
Cory turned around facing me and ....
I JUMPED
wrapped my arms and legs around him and we crashed to the floor kicking the door wide open
we laid on the ground laughing for not less than 20 min
good thing i was close to the bathroom cause a serious accident was on the verge of happening

so....
forgive me Michelle I am guilty for the black smudge and dent in the bathroom door down stairs which i am sure Cory told you was him!

we had ups and downs but that only made our friendship stronger! and had so much fun together.
Cory was always looking out for others and put us before himself.
he always rescued me from places i did not want to be and would give up his night of fun to either come get me or take me home.
I cant tell you how many parties he ditched just to come watch a movie with me because I was having a bad day. he always made me feel better
Cory and I probably got the closest when I spent a entire summer with him sitting at the tattoo shop day in and day out going to the carnival, and going camping. we did everything together that summer i even got cool enough to go lazer tagging with him and all the guys!
did i not only embarrass myself i ruined Cory's reputation

but like i said Cory always put himself last
and i admire that about him.
he never cared what others thought about him.

I never ended a conversation or left him without a huge hug and him telling me 
"LOVE YOU LONG TIME" and this i will never forget

Cory,
Thank you for being a part of my life and letting me be a part of yours. I learned so much from you and look up to you in so many ways. I admire all the amazing qualities you have and strive to find them in myself. Thank you for being my shoulder to cry on and spending countless hours with me. Thank you for teaching me so much about myself and giving me endless amounts of advice that I still use today. You were always someone i could count on for anything you always made me feel unstoppable.
I will never forget all the fun we had and all the stupid pictures we used to take!
You are what I would consider a BEST FRIEND!
I love you Cory!
You will never be forgotten
xoxo Heather

R.I.P. Cory Jex

November 14, 1988

to

March 13, 2011

watch over all of us!

consider it a privilege

this post is a shout out to my awesome roommate Sadie! not only does she have the "privilege" of living in the same house as me she was lucky enough to get to share a bedroom with me. LUCKY LUCKY GIRL
first off I would like to apologize to her for the constant mess...
I leave our bedroom
the 3 foot stack of cloths behind the door in our closet,
that I never make my bed (Sadie does it for me half of the time)
and that I have such a strong opinion on where the mirror hangs on the wall
I am lucky she puts up with me
she was lucky enough to have the experience of  her life of being my roommate the other night!
let me give you a little back ground to get this started
I get up every morning at 7:00 am to go to work which means I go to bed every night around 10:00 pm
I live and exciting life I know (it will change ones the sun comes out)
so .....
Monday night I went to bed @10:00 and was completely asleep by 10:30 so at about 12:00 I have hit the point of no return I am fast asleep and dreaming my night away!
catchin some zzzzzzzzz'z
Sadie being the night owl that she is comes home about 12:30
she comes in and there is absolutely no movement from me I am a goner..... zzzzzzzzz
this is where it gets good....
"how was your day sadie?"
......... no answer from Sadie (she thinks I am asleep) which I am!
"did you do anything fun" I ask another question
then she responds with "nothing exciting"
.........I dont respond
"heather are you awake?" she asks me
"NO" wait what?
I sat straight up in my bed!
Sadie starts hysterically laughing :) long story short I apparently sleep talk and no its not a mumble  or one word I speak in full sentences and try to have full on conversations with you!
Sadie I am sorry......


CONSIDER IT A PRIVILEGE!!

our resting quarters.....

OBSERVATION

Where it was recently Valentines Day and where I work in a restaurant and where I do my fair share of Facebook stalking to keep up on everyone's relationship status changing
SINGLE --> IN A RELATIONSHIP -->ENGAGED --> MARRIED!
I started paying closer attention to these "COUPLES" and I have come to a conclusion that more often than not 1 person in the relationship is lacking (AKA) one is a lot hotter than the other
what is going on in this world.....
what happened to pretty people marring pretty people and
ugly people marrying ugly people
who decided it was acceptable to switch this up a little
maybe it is more than skin deep?
don't get me wrong I am not saying there are no cute couples out there cause I am not I see cute couples everyday.
but this is becoming a problem
EXAMPLE::
Yesterday I was doing my traditional FB stalking at about 10:00 last night while I was laying in bed and came across a relationship status change from IN A RELATIONSHIP --> ENGAGED
SHOCKED
I was...
I had the worlds biggest crush on this boy in high school back them I would have claimed I was "in love" with this boy he was perfectly dreamy in my eyes and just about everyone else s
so I instantly FB stalk her
who has this boy chosen to marry over me??
as the stalking takes place I feel my chin drop into my lap HOLY SHI what has happened ... NO HE IS NOT... WHAT THE??... YOU ARE KIDDING right?
I will just let you guess what is wrong with this girl?
not at all what I would have pictured him to marry (not just because its not me) he could have any girl in the world and he has chosen this!!!
I OBJECT
12 hours later I am still in shock
if she can get him what can I get? ;)
this gives me a little hope for myself!


my famous quote:

 "I guess there really is someone out there for everyone"

bad

not good

worse

 awful

 GREAT COUPLE

 not good together but both beautiful people!!

there is more bad than good these days!


hmmmmm.... I wonder what I will end up with!?

"how is everything tasting"

this post is purely to clear a few things up for all you people out there that have never had any experience being a server!
being a server is HARD work weather you believe it or not
and it requires 3 things
1. the ability to multi task
2. patience/customer service
3. a good pair of shoes
in the restaurant  industry the customer is right 100% of the time. And there is not a freaking thing the server can do about it. most of the time we agree with you but there are times when we bite our tongue  when we know you are wrong.
we only get paid $2.15 a hour not  $7.25 so.....
yes we live off our tips and when you tip bad we don't even make minimum wage that hour!
YOU SHOULD FEEL BAD
when the restaurant is busy and your food take a little time to come out ITS NOT MY FAULT
if the cook messes up your food ITS NOT MY FAULT
if the hostess skips you ITS NOT MY FAULT
if you don't like your food ITS NOT MY FAULT
so some one explain to me why am I punished (with a crappy tip) because someone else messed up!
also a little more information about a restaurant us as servers have to "tip out" the buss boys a percentage of what we sell that shift
let me break this down for you!
if I sell $500.00 in a shift I tip out $15.00
so if you dont tip me I still have to tip out on your bill which means I lose money because of you!
if you "DINE AND DASH" the restaurant does not eat your bill I DO
just because we live in Utah and are over whelmed by a LDS community and we pay our church 10% tithing does not mean we cant tip our servers more than 10%
DO NOT and I repeat DO NOT TIP YOUR SERVER LESS THAN 15% EVERRRRRRRR!
and when Oprah suggest only tipping your waitress 10% to cut down on the cost of a meal DONT LISTEN
if your intentions when you go out are to not tip your server or tip him/her less than 15% why don't you just stay home and save even more money!
all in all dont punish your server for something you know they had no control over and....
ALWAYS TIP YOUR SERVER!!

true obsessions

obsessions::
let me tell you a little something about obsessions! I have a few, some are known and some are not really talked about but I guess that is about to change by posting them on my blog.
oh well here goes nothing! to start off my biggest obsession right now is

PRETTY LITTLE LIARS!

I love love love me some pretty little liars. this obsession started not to long ago maybe 2 months or so my love has just grown fast, probably to fast. it all started when Mars and Mercedes would constantly talk about it and making it sound like these characters were there friends i had to get in on it! I watched my first episode and was instantly hooked! what is not to love about 4 sketchy girls trying to solve a friends murder while dating one of there English teachers one of them being gay one stealing money from anywhere possible to keep herself a float and trying to keep secrets all at the same time! its the best thing that has probably ever happened to me. it has even got me reading which i don't ever do but if i watch the show i have to read the book! RIGHT!?

ON TO THE NEXT ONE

obsession #2
RIHANNA

I have a crush on her! yep I said it with no lesbian tendencies but I love her! she is amazing my love and crush developed for her when she came out with her new album "LOUD" get serious! what is not to love about her? if you can find something legit let me know cause i don't think there is a reason out there! every single song on this album is AMAZING! explicit yes! but still amazing! it surprised me actually not what you would expect out of rihanna but she always pulls through i am not shocked!! LOVE HER

obsession #3
NAIL POLISH
cant get enough of it!  my nails are painted most of the time and most of the time a pretty interesting color anywhere from red to "jade is the new black" (i love the names opi comes up with for there nail polish) they never stay the same color just like my hair! i guess you could say  :) I am working on a serious collection it grows every day.
i need to stay away from cosmo prof cause i go in there to get one hair product and come out with 2 color tubes 1 bottle of developer 1 shampoo and conditioner duo 1 deep conditioner and 6 new nail polishes! hmmmmm you guess it i cant keep the spending under control at any hair store!
But... I LOVE NAIL POLISH!

yes there is more!

obsession #4
THE BACHELOR
yep... Brad Womack himself!

 Yummy!! ... not only is he the most eligible bachelor in the country he is beautiful and has the most amazing smile, eyes and i love his voice
I don't miss the bachelor for anything I am in love with him and the show it is amazing every season! I could defiantly do with out the random therapy sessions in a few episodes.(helping the therapist do a little advertising)
oh....
did I fail to mention his body!!

oh gosh i wish i was her! oh Michelle OK!.... yes she is from UTAH and surprise she is a psycho no wonder everyone in the world thinks Mormons and people from UTAH are nuts 
THANKS MICHELLE!

obsession #5
THE BEIBER JUSTIN BEIBER
he is 16 and every girl in the world is in love with him!

ok not only is he the cutest thing you have ever seen. but he is a good singer his songs are catchy and easy to love
every man in America will tell you he is pathetic and has no talent but let me just tell you men only say this because they are jealous of the millions the beib is racking in at the age of 16
just so you all know
JB could retire right now and be set for life yep at 16
so eat it up boys and wipe those jealous grins off your faces!
I HAVE GOT THE BEIBER FEVER ... and i don't care who knows it!

last but not least

obsession #6
THE 80'S
everything about the 80's is phenomenal from big hair and acid wash jeans  how could you not love the 80's personally I love everything about it!

the closest i can can get to the 80's is the infamous 80's dancing! it brings out a side of me that is only seen by a select few close friends!! whats better than dancing to 80's music in a trashy venue with sketchy people it couldn't get any better if you ask me

now you know all my secret obsessions....
At least i am not scared to admit it!

Valentines day? whats that?

Valentines Shmalentines! boooo that is all I have to say about you!
some of you are probably thinking by the looks of my blog and my attitude about "Valentines day" that I am just a bitter girl that is jealous everyone got to go out except for me! Think again suckers... I hate valentines day because why do we need a national holiday to tell someone how much we love them?
this is something that should be done daily not once a year! Valentines day makes it easy for guys they get in the mind set of I only have to do something like this once a year....
GUYS....
you are so wrong!!
you better be all for making your girl feel special more than one day a year she deserves it for putting up with you anyways
you boys dont understand what kind of stress you put your girl through on a daily basis she deserves the best everyday of the year!
Valentines day is by far the cheesiest holiday EVER
now lets get serious here for a little....
there is no need a plastic cupid shooting a bow and arrow placed on the windshield of his/her car?
or giant balloons with a kissing frog?
or horrible tasting message hearts?
or a cheesy card the size of the computer monitor?

WHY HAS DOES THIS HOLIDAY HAVE TO BE SO CHEESY!?

and speaking of cheese why was there 37 parties of 2 at the Pizza Factory last night?
guys really you took her to the Pizza Factory?
and you wonder why she did not put out.....
all and all I HATE "Valentines Day"

but thanks to my roomie Alyssa we had a wonderful date to yes the Pizza Factory and watchED the bachelor oh and I cant forget the amazing hair cut she gave me
HANDS DOWN.... the best date ever!

at least Alyssa pulled through cause all you guys didn't!

Thank goodness that day is over! :)

play what we call "the game"

"Don't hate the player hate the game" being 20 and single I feel like I have played every game possible! you are probably wondering what game exactly am I talking about?
THE DATING GAME .... it sucks!!
sometimes I just wish I could sit on the side lines and watch everyone else play the game for me and hopefully lead me to VICTORY but unfortunately its not that easy.
I hate the games
I hate the games
I hate the games
I have come to find out that I hate the games and do everything in my power to not play them. But if you want to play them I will play them back so HARD its the competitive nature that comes out in me when this happens!
I wear my heart on my sleeve and I cant think of a better place for it. This is a really bad thing a lot of the time and that is why I HATE THE GAME
now for example....
1st date elaborate date which then turns into a marathon date.... all night marathon which I slept through half of! ..... kissing?..... ya...... good kissing?......YES
hmmmmmmm  now what!
Texting? yes all day everyday
everyday hangouts? yes for about a week
also had very open conversations about not playing "the game" was mentioned
Good! we are on the same page or at least that is what I thought
then.....
nothing no talking no texting no hanging out for about a week. but during this week he gets surgery so....
yes! you hit it right on the nose he wants me to come "take care" of him I thought about it and went back and forth do I go? do I not? but the motherly in stinks kicked in
there is a boy you are extremely attracted to home alone sick taking pain killers! so what do I do? I go and "take care" of him watch movies eat Popsicles and try and do a little entertaining. 
Is the kissing still going on? YES!
he makes full recovery and then again I dont hear from him so at this point I am pissed
my thought process is I take care of you I help you I bring you movies WTF
so I am starting to think!......
BRING ON THE GAME!
I will show you how it is played!!
you just watch maybe take notes
so a few days go by he comes around and decides he is going to make a small effort and text me I dont respond another day goes by he texts again I respond very short asking if I can come get my movies? his response was after 10 come over!
10 rolls around I call him no answer
1 am rolls around I get a text saying dinner ran over sorry!
SHUT UP! 
you should not have even texted me no dinner runs till 1 am you IDIOT
GET SERIOUS
you can just bring them to me at work.
a week goes by I dont text him and he tries texting me a few times I either dont respond or am very short.
a random hangout happens .... kiss? .... yes!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Saturday comes around .... surprise visit at work with a treat? WHAT?
that is boyfriend status.
Sunday drive!? Good night text!! never gotten one of those from you before

GOOD NIGHT NELLY

you are wondering what happens next?... ya me too!
the game is being played way to hard I am going to quit but then he will do something and reel me back in
keeping me close but not to close... I am on to you silly boy!

why does this game have to be played
I hate it
I hate it
I hate it

the classiest place on earth!

you are all probably wondering where to classiest place on earth is because you obviously want to go there! VIVA LAS VEGAS!
it was late summer early fall when a few of my girlfriends and I decided that we were ready for a little classy fun ... we are classy ladies right? so we talked it over and decided we needed a vacation hmmmm where are we going to go? cali? st. george? park city? I mean all we wanted to do was shop anyways so any of those would have worked but we wanted class real class so where else better than VEGAS  itself!! the decison was made and off we went!
VEGAS OR BUST
literally! we put ourselves on quiet a time frame we needed to be there by 4 o clock Vegas time on Sunday and we left Provo at 12:30 oops! you guys are probably wondering why were you on such a time frame its a vacation right?
RIGHT?
but fortunately my cousin Kimball was down there and I wanted to meet up with him and his flight left at 7 something which yes put us in a tight time frame!
we hit the road
making our own music videos
laughing
laughing
laughing
learned that I am a great Chris Brown impersonater
learned that Ashley is a great Jordan Sparks
and we were going to become famous because of "no air"
had a lot of girl talk (wouldnt you like to know about what)
alright alright.... you are probably wondering by now did we make it by 4?
hmmm... we hit st george to get gas and the girls did not know it but we had less than a hour to get there so I jumped in the drivers seat!
Misty was nervous considering it was her car and she knows how I drive hehe!
she bit her tonge
ALRIGHT !!
yes!!.... WE MADE IT by 4:00 on the dot!
but we had one more problem none of the girls being 21 posed a slight problem we could not get checked into our hotel room :)
so... Misty having connections anywhere we go PULLED THROUGH! but let me tell you hotel rooms in Vegas are classy! classy ladies classy rooms!!
good girl!
I was so excited we were there I was loving the instant heat and the amazing sun YAY! ITS NOT UTAH
but I bounced out of there I had to meet up with Kimball I had not seen him in years! he came to pick me up at my hotel because it was probably not the smartest idea for me to roam Vegas alone! I was getting very impatient I just wanted to see him!
my phone rang  Kimball and his friend Alvaro were at the bottom of the elevators waiting! I could not have gotten down there faster. I got down and ran over to them giving Kimball this huge hug and watching Alvaro look at me he was in for a treat I walked over to him and gave him a hug I think he was shocked oh well!.. I am who I take it or leave it! It was so great to see them and meet Alvaro they took me to get ice cream and we walked and talked we ventured to the Luxor pool and had a good laugh! all I am going to say is a quote from Alvaro that made me fall in love with him "to your right you will see the gays in there natural habitat" I looked at Kimball and he looked back at me and we broke out laughing! Alvaro and Kimball are honestly 2 of the most amazing men I have ever met and I am so blessed to have them in my life! but it was time I had to send them off I felt like a mother kissing my boys good bye only to see them again in May!

back to my girls! it was time to let the fun begin shopping, eating, laying out, GIRLS WEEKEND and we were ready we were all over the place we ate at cheesecake factory which is always good but being in Vegas everything was dirty we probably would have been better off eating off the strip! yum! I decided it would be fun to dance outside the fountain show and little did I realize everyone and there dog was watching and laughing! we laid by the pool every morning Candace tried to convince me she got bit by a shark yes! I bought it,  fought over the shower, shopped literally till we dropped I managed to spend $600 in 3 days VOMIT but all in all we had so much fun I could not have asked for a better time in Vegas!

FAMOUS QUOTES OF VEGAS
"hey do you want to be my girlfriend?" ... "for how long"
"hey ladies do you want to get shots?"..."do you want to get shot"
"so many pretty ladies so many pretty ladies, my wife would kill me"
"I have spent so much money oh well!"
"you ladies want to come the palms tonight?"... "why are you touching my foot"

VEGAS WAS A SUCCESS ..... ITS TIME TO DO IT AGAIN!

analyzing my life!

I have hit a hump in my life and I don't exactly know how to get over it! small problem right? no! HUGE PROBLEM...
I am 20 going on 21 young right!? The fun has only begun or at least that is what I think but... we live in a society (UTAH) where someone somewhere decided that if you were a female age 21 and male age 23 you are a nuisance to society if you were not married and pregnant by that age! GET SERIOUS I am perfectly normal and some say good looking and yes you guessed it I am NOT MARRIED or PREGNANT so this leads me to think to myself "heather you are becoming a nuisance" blah blah blah SHOOT! in any other place in this world the average age for marriage is 25-28 and having children 27-31 right! so why has Utah decided that we are going to change this.
Some people wonder why Utah has such a high divorce rate hmmmm..... I wonder maybe because young people feel like they have to be married so young so they A. rush into things or B. get knocked up (because pre-marital sex is so frowned upon the young generation has a bigger desire to do it) not me but is common here in our small community which then leads these young couples to believe that marriage is the only option for them! this in time can be a BAD IDEA which then later on in life leads to the "D" word that is what my parents make us call it. That word is frowned upon in our home because we all come from a divorced family but I mean we turned out ok I guess.....
but back to the topic of me at this hump
so what if I dont want to get "married"
so what if I dont want more schooling (I went to hair school)
so what if I dont want to live in my parents basement till I am 30
so what if I dont want kids for 10 years
DOES THIS MAKE ME A NUISANCE TO SOCIETY?
no!
so now what .....
whats next for me?
I am wondering that for myself ...
HUMP
so I have a few options
option 1: stay right where I am? living in provo, dating no one, working a 8-2 job, doing hair here and there, and going to bed every night by 10 ...
WAKE UP AND DOING IT AGAIN!
alright everyone I am clearly more fun than the life I am living
option 2: venture up to SLC and live and work and maybe find myself some more fun!
option 3: do something drastic and move out of state and pursue my hair career (my parents would flip) so maybe that is a BAD IDEA
option 4: I dont really have a option 4 maybe.... buy a new car! that would be fun :) commute to SLC to work? hmmm....


ITS CLEARLY TIME FOR SOMETHING NEW!

I tried this one time before! I went to my dad one day and said "dad I think I need something new in my life" he replied to me saying "heather what do you think you need" so i gained up the courage and said "I need a new phone with every app. possible" he looked at me with a confused look and said "why the hell do you want one of those" so me trying anything in my power to get what I wanted I said "cause if I have a cool phone I wont need a boyfriend!" SOLD! ... I got the new phone!
but.... it did not help as much as I thought
so then I hit up my mom and tried to convince her she wanted another dog! actually I wanted a dog and I wanted her to help me help take care of it.... good idea? GREAT IDEA so my mom being the dog lover that she is jumped on the internet went to the pound and looked for a cute little something for me/her she came across a cute little chihuahua at the pound that was less than 2 pounds but had a few problems. my mom kept trying to get me to come down to the Lindon pound to see her but I did not want a "retarded" dog. so mean while my mom is going to down to the pound everyday to see this dog. so finally I go down one Saturday to see it instant LOVE <3 so now I have adorable dog she consumes a little of my time but much more of my moms! good thing my mom loves the both of us. She feels a small portion of the gap...
but I still dont know what is next for me! hmmmm .......

WISH ME LUCK!

all I know is I dont want this "title"

2010!

I will keep this short and sweet! I don't have any inspiring thoughts for you... just a little bit of what I learned. 2010 and I have a love hate relationship. At the beginning of this year you could have called me what some people refer to as a quote un-quote "lost puppy" yes that was me I was the picture perfect lost puppy. In January I decided that I wanted to grow up and do WHAT I WANTED I was under a little influence of my friends being moved out and doing what they wanted. But I  still wanted to live free! aka my parents house. A few of you may know my amazing step mom Tamar and her strong personality was not letting me get away with this and bless my little lost puppy soul I was going to do something about IT and I chose to move out of my families home in Springville. Which then forced me to take a big leap into being a grown up! This hit me hard $310 for rent $200 for gas $70 for my cell phone (latest and greatest T-mobile has to offer) $60 for car insurance and then I realized food is not free! this hit me hard and fast my little waitress job at Pizza Factory was no longer cutting it! I had to do something drastic DRY CLEANING & BEYOND here I come! yes I work at a dry cleaner! you heard right the hyper fun crazy girl you know sits at a dry cleaner by herself way to QUIET! But thanks to my dads friend Jesse I was now the newest manager/employee at DCB Provo store! Its a steady income and I thought how hard could this be. I got a wake up call about a month into it when I had to have confrontation with my employees, fix problems, and deal with customers complaints. This job is a lot harder than I thought. but it gets better.... as time went on I then realized I was getting into a serious relationship with DCB I did not know if I was ready for then I found myself a few months later as the paychecks got bigger. We exchanged voes and now we are MARRIED!.... get serious!! not literally but hypothetically speaking!
I have learned a lot this past year! Growing up is not easy, finding good friends is really hard, its not worth fighting with your roommates over a borrowed q-tip, stay strong, be yourself, try to be the peace maker when you live with 9 girls!
I tested myself a lot this year having the freedom I had always hoped for allowed me to make mistakes and learn from them. I soon learned that everything happens for a reason and I unfortunately have to learn the hard way!
I also made good decisions! surprising? I know... I got my life back in order and where I always hoped to have it. Thank goodness my Heavenly Father loves me and is willing to forgive me!
I am in the best place I have ever been and have the best friends I could ask for and I am HAPPY!
but its time the put 2010 in the past and bring on 2011
New Year, New Friends, New Me!

me blogging? NO!

here it is! I am selling my soul to the blogging nation, I dont know if I am completely ready for this. But I think I am ready to risk it.
Let me just explain myself and how I rationalized the idea of blogging A. My friend Megan and I started one this summer "Life in the 801" it was fun we spent a lot of time updating people on our summer in Provo, but... she started school and I started working and we lost a lot of time that we spent with each other. So that meant the BLOG died! B. My friend Witney Wilson started one. She inspired me! Maybe I will like this C. I am terrible at keeping a journal. I find myself being a very witty funny person and when I Write in a journal I dont get to share my (what I find funny) journal entries. They remain boxed up in a notebook I keep by my bed nobody wants to read. Now I am going to worn you what you read in my blog can range from what I had for breakfast to why I stay up till 3 a.m. and try to go to work the next morning at 7. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK